The passage indicates that the writer initially felt lost and uninformed because he didn’t know where to go or what to do. Eventually, he discovered a notice board that contained all the information he needed. Upon reflection, he realised that: "...I was not able to escape the thought that I could not be sure how much of the responsibility for the darkness was mine, [and] the fact that something had not been done to draw attention to that apocalypse of the notice board had contributed clearly to my initial predicament." This means the writer partly blamed himself for not finding the notice board earlier and partly blamed the lack of proper signposting or communication about the notice board’s importance.